Road to Thiagaraja

I've completed 12th standard and now am a college student. For the past two months, I've been writing many entrance exams . I wasn't sure of decent cutoff in my board exams and that's the reason why i wrote those entrance exams.The day i got my board exam result turned up to be an unforgettable day in my life.well, i call it a red letter day.more than anything i was glad i could enter a dote 1 college which happen to be my mom's dream. I personally wished to get into P.S.G college of engineering which is my goal right from the day i saw people talking greatly of my cousin who joined there.I look up to that college as a perfect place to learn and to grow.I hardly take any interest when people at my home think about putting me in TCE.
Most of the people I meet ask " what is your plan? whats your total?". The week that followed the results publish , I was busy partying. They way people looked at me changed. I felt proud ,worthy, confident. picking up the right college was my top priority. then my cousins came over for vacation and the holidays started moving faster.
I gathered enough information about the colleges I had in mind. my mom accompanied me to the TNEA counseling. the minute I entered anna univ i caught sight of a sea of over whelming parents and students. every single parent seemed to be more exited than the candidate. since I was in the safer side my mom wasn't tensed .all the candidates with the cut off of 197.25 were asked to gather in a hall to check the availability of seats in various colleges. I was dumb struck when i found that the CSE seats in P.S.G turned zero.i was so upset when i realised that i couldnt make it to my dream college.even when i write this part of the article i weep for i cant make it thru. after i lost P.S.G i dint show any interest in the rest of the colleges ,for all seemed the same to me ,whether SSN or TCE , it dint make a big difference .when it was my turn to pick my home for the next 4 years i went with my mom's wish(atleast she'll be happy).At first I found it hard to imagine me as a student of TCE .Then I heard from many of my close friends that they have chosen TCE . I got two reasons to be happy. 1.I can be in my home town for 4 more years with my mother. 2.I get to be with my best friends. I could hardly think of any other reason to rejoice. later I was 'okay' with that.

First day of my college was in front of me.I preferred to speak in monosyllable in the class.college atmosphere wasnt much different from my school.most of the people there were familiar to me.I dint even take any interest in knowing the names of the girls next to me nor any other person in my section.then i willingly went on for the post of class representative and now every thing is fine around me or atleast I am looking at things that way.

My conversation with Myself

One thing I most awaited was 'holidays' ,especially holidays for months to together..finally I got them. the problem is that,it is not as good doing as i thought. Everyday i should come up with something which will keep me busy for the rest of the day.but its hard thinking different jobs everyday.I started spending time with no one else but me ,only me.


This is how the first day of this month went...I heard some people talking around me ,i tried to ignore them and continue my dream. then I made up my mind to get up at 7am!In a dreamy state, grabbed the brush next the newspaper. turned to last page,i do that every time, reading from the last the last page..,i like being in empty stomach or i have brunch. then did some chores and had my lunch and sat in front of computer hoping that there is someone to chat..next 2 hrs went that way.then roamed around the house,bullied my cat,then searched for something in my house but i don't know what was actually expecting .


Then waited until the evening .then shot out of my house,to my friend's house and spent some time talking about our good old school ,teachers ,classmates ,went for a walk ,played a game. then i reached home exhausted ,refreshed myself and sat down to play my piano .I revised my old pieces ,composed new ones. then my mom called for dinner .I'll be right in front of the TV.my mom drops my plate in my lap and take it after i finish my food every night. then I got back to my computer ,heard some songs ,ignoring my mom's shout to try out some C-program. Then I lied down in my bed with my mobile.my friends message me a lot at night more than day time! I like doing that either.chats go on till late night . sometimes it crosses even 12am.


If u are interested to know how the rest of the days in that month went ,read this article 29 times..i really mean it. This article contains 15 'I's . the whole day ,the whole month revolved around me. no one else, just me. At one point of time i felt holidays aren't that inviting rather delightful. I still got 4 more months to spend in loneliness.I speak with myself a lot and this is a bit of my conversation with myself.

Few lovely souls i came across..

There are people other than my family who brought me up , who cared for me ,who celebrated my victory and wept wen i did.. I call them by the name "friends".. I have many..but few leave a mark..

I here express what I feel about few such people and time spent with them..

Pratheeba is one such person .I like spending time with her,chatting with her..
I share all my secrets with her(for any information ,contact her!).
She is so patient and hanging out with her is always fun. we share lots of things in common.
I will never forget the time we spent in 9-C classroom , your birthday ,comedies in corridors.i always wanted to say am not the same without you dear..

Then comes Aparna , 'our thala'..we call her that way..studied with her only 2 years but became so close..i chat with aparna for hours together.. we roam around together..
i can never forget the time we spent in bell jumbo (08') ,cricket we played.
I ,partheeba and aparna always stick together at school. unfortunately we were thrown to different classes during high school. but we meet during all the breaks

you are my nice choco mallow swt friend..


then Shyam..
Shyam studied with me for just 2 years. I havent spoken much with him during that two years.
Shyam such a great adviser.. i once called it slow death(am sry).. i always look up to him..
he is my great source of inspiration.. only thing is that he refuses to wish me 'hi' or 'bye' during TIME classes!! not many friends bother if the other is doing the right thing , this guy reminds me about what i should be doing and that's what i like so much in him and do continue to put me in right track when i deviate..he knows to carry himself so well.

Hari is my great friend.he is such a 'take it easy' person who gets along with everyone just like that. he is not adultered by the people around him. there are two words that he uses a lot ,they are 'great' and 'sorry'..We chat for hours together.we ll start the chats with 'good night' and we finish it with 'good morning'..! sounds crazy nah!

Alice is the first friend i made in sboa.I studied with her for 4 years. she is so sportive .as years went by we began to drift apart. she chose biology group in high school .after that i couldn't meet her frequently ,not even once in a week. Luckily during the kodai trip ,she was in my bus ,the very next seat. that brought us together again!

Amudhan..
I call him 'amu', that's how i like it.he lives in a parallel universe.he is such a great thinker . he makes such a fine leader.I look forward for his speeches.they mostly carry his trade mark! all his speeches carry a sentence...'the climb may be steep ,the road ahead may be long ,but ,we the SBOAns...'this is how it goes. his ideas stand taller than him.

then Magdeline..
We call her 'Maggi'.though we weren't in the same class for many years ,we knew each other so well. we spend lot of time talking about things and events around us than about our personal stuff. we take part in lot of activities involving speeches and plays. she is bit spiritual and likes HP as much as I do.

my dear cousins..

I like to spend time wid my cousins..

they live far from my place..they come one in a year or so..

they are much younger than me..

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tis is Ivan and Pratheesh..

they live in delhi..

pratheesh s soo charming..i like seeing him smile..

he talks soo sweetly..

the elder one is Ivan..

he is soo playful and doing homework is like nightmare to him..

this ismy cousins living in US.the elder one is Kevin and that kid is Ryan ..

Kevin and me are like tom and jerry..

we keep playing happily and that will not prolong for more than an hour..

being the eldest i'll be caught and questioned..

never mind..i give some excuses cooly..am used to that..

and that is my aunt behind us..

and about Ryan..he is the youngest of all..
he likes any kind of sport that comes with ball..future michael jordan!!